Friends, this post is tough and very personal. I've been out on bereavement since June after expecting to be on maternity leave. It's with a heavy heart that Bryan and I share the news of our son, Beau Wayland Coston. Born and taken Monday, June 15, 2015 at 1:38 PM. He weighed 6 lbs 14 ounces and was 20.5 inches long. He was a mighty little man with huge feet and hands. He looked so much like his daddy.
We had a normal pregnancy and were expecting a normal delivery. Beau was due to arrive on his Great Grandfather's, Wayland, birthday, June 16th. We visited the hospital on Sunday, June 14th after we noticed Beau hadn’t been moving much all morning. Earlier that day, we spent the morning enjoying breakfast at our neighbor’s restaurant, driving backroads planning future motorcycle rides and holding hands chatting about the last weekend as a family of two. The sun was shining and we were so thankful to be spending the day relaxing together. We were so elated and nervous to welcome Beau.
Within an hour of arriving at the hospital, our lives changed forever. The doctors at Vanderbilt gave us the news that our sweet boy didn’t have a heart beat. Immediately, we were sent to labor and delivery and a medical induction proceeded. The darkest hours of our lives were spent together finding strength in each other waiting to meet our son. We delivered sweet Beau and spent five amazing hours with him. We held him tight, kissed him, changed his diaper and tried on a few outfits. Those five hours were the best five hours of our entire lives.
In the sadness, we are truly grateful for an easy and peaceful delivery. We were surrounded by an incredible group of caregivers from our doula, nurse and midwife. They didn’t leave our side for 19 hours - unheard of care. They held our hands, prayed, cried and wiped our tears. We are grieving for all we had planned for Beau - teaching him to golf, watching all his firsts, seeing our parents love our son. We’ve had multiple tests done to determine the cause of his sudden death only days away from his due date. But, we just may never know what happened.
There aren’t enough words to describe the love and support we have felt from all our clients and industry friends. We so appreciate the privacy and silent love we so needed. If you would like to do something for us, we encourage you to visit Beau’s website. The website includes a link to donate to our doula service to help support other families in need.
It's been nearly 6 weeks since Beau arrived, and we are back in action. Certainly, there's a hole in our hearts, but we are overwhelmed by the love and excitement coming in the months ahead with every client. Thank you for letting us share such a huge part of our personal lives with you, and letting us share in your lives.